Zhiyah, the Affirmative Atheist
African American Atheist
Theist Awaits
I have falling and can't get up
But, Theist Awaits with its filthy traps.
My life is full of lust and haste,
But, theist awaits, with its sex hate .
Neighbors of malevolence virtues ties,
Theist Awaits and embrace what evils,
stand before and in back ;and also from left to right.
Will I ever have peace in the world I stay,
Only if I keep the Theist Awaits, at bay.
Zhi Y. Zhang
(Zhiyah)
(Alfreda P. Howard)
March 21, 2009
For the adored black sister Dealing with the white wash brother. Dear ,James Ralph, Eddie Cochran, and Eric Acosta ( The Indignant Fools), I am writing this letter , because my doctor told me too. I just thought you should know , if you ever come across me . Don’t ever approach me; don’t even bother . My relationship with you fools ; was in unhealthy barbarism. You’re not even welcome in my thoughts and mind . Not, even in the world I so finely occupy. You’re other females , must be thought I loved you . Because, they caused such a disturbance in my family ; Until they had to bend and cuddle you. But, not anymore because they refuse to be tricked into cuddling you indignant fools; whom have trouble with rejection blues. James your confidence in me , is filled with , an evil bliss ; From you and your 505 Charleston maintenance madness. Your interest in me ; was only for some sort of religious hatred. Like Eddie and Eric, the big dumb idiots. Eddie your blade cut me , with disbelief . Like Eric taking my innocence ones again, like a white man back in slavery . James Ralph is a fool , that caters to the white race , whom follow me around ; suffering from a white piggy disgrace. James your lieing about still sexing me; like Eddie and Eric whom have two left feet . The last time I sex James Ralph was back in November 2004; like Eddie Cochran back in August of 2005, and Eric Acosta back in November of 2006. Those are the last dates that I let you hit it. James religious effort , could not change me , from being an empowered African American Atheist . So , be gone James , Eddie and Eric , stop trying to give my future true lovers , your now heartache. I do feel better ; after writing this letter to you , Indignant fools. Who could not even come close to my Brown Sugar one, but two. Making me free , to kiss whoever I please ; Whom will value me, as a beautiful African American Queen. My closing to you ; is find a better way to deal with life disappointments and heartaches. Not your lover anymore, Alfreda P. Howard (Zhi Y. Zhang) 6/16/09 The Only Way The only way to an righteous life. One must free their mind from religious strife . The criteria of life ;does not involves an spiritual approach. Because it will lose our way , to the rationalization of our true world. The Free-Thought , of an Atheist is the only way. To create balance and fairness amongst the human race. Zhi Y. Zhang (Zhiyah) (Alfreda P. Howard) Apirl 25, 2009
A Song
The Free-Thinker me.
One, two, three
the Christian after me.
Four, five, six
their always throwing sticks.
Seven, eight, nine
it misses every time.
There is no god , there is god
to make me come back and whine.
There is no god , there is god
that’s enslaving my mind.
Ten, eleven, twelve
I want be going to hell.
Thirteen, fourteen, fifthteen
because there really no such thing as Christian.
Sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen
God never come on time
because I don't believe in him ;only in mankind
There is no god, there is god
to make me come back and whine.
There is no god , there is god
that enslaves my mind.
Twenty, twenty-one, twenty-two
Christian try to give me false views.
Twenty-three, twenty-four, twenty-five
to trick me to pay gods tithes.
Twenty-six, twenty-seven, twenty-eight
I don't ever resist, to the tricky saint.
There is no god , there is god
to make me come back and whine.
There is no god , there is god
that enslaves my mind.
Twenty-nine, thirty, thirty-one
the game of life I won.
Bye me, Bye me
Free-thinker me.
Bye me , Bye me
Atheist me.
Zhi Y. Zhang
(Zhiyah)
(Alfreda P. Howard)
March 3, 2009
The Stalking White Pig
Just coming out from paying my bill.
I ran into man; of yellow , white looking pale.
He held his head to aside with no pride;
And muttered a line , and fumbled two.
It was The Stalking White Pig; controlling within,
To the insane brother-man ; that is not originally him.
He tries to get my attention ; so, I will follow into his filthy pin .
Like an damsel in distress ; standing in a locked room; surround by a flocks of rapist men.
I turned him down; causing him to frown, all around town.
So, I guess.
Desperate he got ; and followed me into Walmart,
Whistling his evil at his best.
So, he then begin t o create lies, to the naked and hateful eyes .
Giving the impression ; that him and me are intertwined.
The evil that he spread, all throughout town .
Caused my distant relatives; once again to have an frown;
That makes my life fold in ; and then become home bound.
The Stalking White Pig came , and did his damage and left.
Now there is a new bright family life, without his hatefulness of strife.
Beware of The Stalking White Pig ; that can be the brother man.
Plotting to enhance his self man ; by destroy his sister to the other –man.
Brother Oh! Brother ; stop ruining yourself and your people .
Be a Strong Black Brother-man;
That has the power and wisdom to tame the other-man;
That don’t give a dame about your sister and her Brother Fatherman ;
Just because he can.
Strong Black Brother, Strong Black Brother ;
Take care of your sister and her family .
Which is a reflection of you , which is a the female me .
Leave being The Stalking White Pig , to them, who is not your friend.
by
Alfreda P. Howard
(Zhi Y. Zhang)
Brown Sugar, Brown Sugar
How did you get like that , can I get some?
So, my tummy will be tight , like yours yummy , yum ,yum .
You talk so smooth ; even with the things you do .
Like cruising down the highway , looking at your dark brown eyes and body of masculine fine .
Hazel your not ; which is really cool; peeking into your dark brown eyes makes me have belief in you .
Oh , how I would love to wine , dine and sixty-nine with you ; under the fading candles ; like my mind resisting to you .
I am a bit taller or maybe shorter, but that’s alright .
I can still kiss your lips ; then travel down to your thick thighs .
Dance for me love ; I will watch you in the glancing dim light.
While my sexual intention are; being mystified by your mesmerizing might.
Oh me, Oh my , I want to make you mines; forever or just for one long day and night.
Brown Sugar, Brown Sugar is how you look so melting sweet to me .
Your skin shade of beautiful brown ; makes the other fellows hate on you all throughout town.
What more can I say; about your swagger in the things you do.
Just know two things ; that you Northern Brother , are a Fine and Sexy Baby Bo‘s.
Alfreda P. Howard
(Zhi Y.Zhang)
(Zhiyah)
6/6/09
The Moon and Star
Oh what a night ,of an fresh free life.
As, I look upon the dark sky, of the moon and star so bright.
Look at it's freedom, that stands still day and night.
That walk upon my face, rippling with tickles left to right.
Moon and Star, Moon and Star, I open my mind with it ajar.
That your presence is an zealousness, of my free thoughts.
Zhi Y. Zhang
(Zhiyah)
(Alfreda P. Howard)
March 21, 2009
The Medieval Gallops Forest of murky dusk, that trees peek grand. Medieval Gallops from a distant sound. Raucous of the beast, the naying of its heed. Black Knight uncertainty, Medieval Gallops very slowly Strength withered the faded fog , standing with might. Black Knight and the beast it rides Silver song of the sword, in the gripped palm Medieval Gallops on in the silver armor of free. Freedom that cradles the Atheist Black Knight That deftness and fear can still be felt, in the flicking daylight. Clashing of the crucifixion and free life. Has left Atheist , The Black Knight, with achieve rights . Realism prevailed over the believer Medieval Gallops on that hinders neither. Zhi Y. Zhang (Zhiyah) (Alfreda P. Howard)
6/06/09
The Diligent Woman ( the Atheists woman ) Diligent Woman The Diligent woman can be , as dainty , as can be . To obtain my greatness; you do not half to be an religious theist ; which is not reality. The daintiness of my dip , and the sternness of my triumphed elephant walk . Signifies a woman, that is clearly a passion of Free- thoughts. Unlike the political parties ; my thoughts is full of all their intelligent minds. When I speaks people notice me ; without me dancing around like a holy sanctified clown. I make religious woman jealous; because she does not have the strength to become unbound . My touch is of magnificent, that warmth’s and creates man to cherish me . He remembers the way that I move , in my private dance; which soothe his need . Or, even dancing amongst the people ; whom is not worshiping a god, that don’t exist to them and me . Envious of an new type of diligent woman, which she dreams upon . She still looks forward to an heaven , that will and shall not come. Look at me I am free to fit into my shorts , pants and dainty jeans , or even wear a skirt that is high above my knees . Or even a long dress ; that creates suspense to whoever watching me. My body is exposed, to exploit my sexuality . Because I am all woman, not an god created fantasy; From Adams rib, which is nonsense to me. My wisdom is not chagrin ; Because I have the ability to bounce back ; t o the changes that comes and needs . But, not for the religious woman, whom is stuck in primitively . If only the religious woman could speak up ; or just mutter a word . But the fear she has in man’s god , got her steady into church. When a man decides ; that his love has falling away from me. I just deal with the hurt; by brushing my shoulders off , instead of drowning myself like Percy Shelly wife did , for her religious dignity. Or , like a bitter woman sitting scorn in church ; that display acts of peculiar for the pastor pity . Though man is for woman, and woman for man , like people for the world , and world for woman and man . My love is only for the one , that treats me with fairness like his fellow man. But, he also must know , I live for me first and then the rest will fall into his greatness. Oh religious woman, don’t you wish you had my strength . To fight the toughs o f life; what you call an invisible Satan. Satan and god , is a less irrational thought ; of an primitive mind. The ruthless of unconscious, creates an unrealistic essential for life. Keep your bible religious woman c lose to you ; So you can do your best for god , that binds you to sexist suggestion in the way you dress. Which denies your strength of an free feminist . My mind is free ; to fly to infinite heights . Reminisces of the great philosophers Dubois; that created the Fabulous Black Atheist life. The reality of it all ; is my diligences sees realism in my need ; it crafts me to fit the evolutional changes, in my society . Instead of denying what is apparent , to what the eyes can actually see. The Apostolic women ; submission to the religious mans bigot creed; to the Seventh Day and the Catholic belief, of what is considered to be a false authenticity ; and to the Muslim woman who support this highly unethical atrocity . All the religions, are full of falsities. Alfreda P. Howard ( Zhi Y. Zhang) (Zhiyah) 8/9/09
Don't
Don't part from me, my dear friend in a distant land, of thy mind
For I, will never hurt thy heart and mind; nor, hurt thy being and body.
For I , came upon your life to touch the still waters; that reflect your strength and might.
Hoping that it will create waves of an expanded way of life.
Zhi Y. Zhang
(Zhiyah)
(Alfreda P. Howard)
March 31, 2009
